Good news!

So I typically don't post good news on here... and honestly, there hasn't been much of it in the past few months. BUT...

I finally had a normal cycle. Ovulation on Day 15... normal luteal phase... everything is perfect. I think that things are starting to even out.

I didn't realize how messed up my body would be after the surgery, and I just kinda expected things to get back to normal quickly.

So now that I'm "normal" - I have a GREAT chance of getting pregnant!

Weird thing... I was going to cancel my appointment for the fertility doc next week. After I found out about my normal cycle and had a great acupuncture appointment today - the doctor called ME and had to reschedule. Talk about a sign...

One More Week

I've been having a pretty rough time about everything lately. My appointment is next Thursday to get my prescription for the medication (Femara) and the injections (HsG shots I think?). Even though I've been extremely busy with school, this situation is always lurking in the back of my mind.

I think about the whole process and how long it's been since Steve and I sat at this table I'm sitting at right now... "negotiating" on when it would be a good time to have a baby. I wanted to start immediately (Fall 2008) and he wanted to wait until the next year. So we met halfway, and decided that I'd stop the Pill in Feb. 2009 and we'd start shortly after. I can't believe that was three years ago.

It's just one of those things that you always assume your body will be able to do. Stop the Pill, try for a few months, and just like magic... there's that positive pregnancy test. When it doesn't happen for you... over... and over... and over... you find that every month just gets harder and harder. No matter how much I try to be prepared for a let down at the end of a cycle, I always get my heart broken.

Last week, a friend of mine announced her pregnancy to me. It was shocking... mostly, because she tried ONCE. Yes. Once. I tried to imagine what it would be like to have experienced something like that instead. Our child would be two years old by now. Unfortunately, that's not the way things turned out for me.

I get tired of everyone saying that "it will happen when it's meant to be!" How about the one-night stands that get pregnant? Those are meant to be? Doesn't make sense. I have a loving husband, a good home, a good family, I can afford a child, etc. I seem to have it all in line, but for some reason that one thing I want is missing.

Whew... I feel better now that I got that all out. Back to work. =\

Next Steps

I haven't been feeling so great lately. This infertility thing is like a roller-coaster. Sometimes I'll feel good and positive, and other times I feel like giving up. This week was one of the giving-up times.

The good news is that I start on my fertility drugs next month. The bad news is that now that means that acupuncture and natural stuff didn't work. It's always hard to move on to the next step. I felt the same way before I got to surgery in December. But I guess there's no use putting it off anymore.

Part of the depression is also that my 30th Birthday is looming in the (near) future. I didn't realize how much it would effect me that I'm still not a mother at this point in my life.

Everything else is going well... school is busy as always. This semester is going by very quickly - before I know it I'll be a 3L. :)

Here goes nothing

I gave in. I'll be starting on Femara and HcG shots next month hopefully. I can't take it anymore. My heart is broken, I am tired... so tired of the ache to be a mother and the frustration of not being able to do anything to make it happen.

Why am I having to go through this?

Fertility drugs and such

I'm a generally impatient person... trying to get pregnant for over two years = pure torture.

We decided we are going to try for 4 cycles (once I get back to normal from the surgery) before getting on the medication.

My doctor wants to try 3-5 days of Femara and then one HcG shot on day 5. I did a bit of research today about Femara and a lot of women have had success. It supposedly will inhibit my estrogen, amp up my progesterone, and get my body to develop some of the follicles in my ovaries to release. Once that happens, the shot on day 5 will get my body to release the egg.

I'm hopeful... but worried about money and such. I'm going to try and get my taxes done quickly so that we can use the refund to pay for it. Here's to trying something new and hoping that it works...

I'm ready to be a momma!

The Truth About Trying

Here we go again

So, I ended up having a very long cycle - 36 days. The doc thinks it was just a fluke because my system is in shock from the surgery. So this month is our real first GOOD chance since the surgery.

I am not feeling very optimistic, but we need to try as best as we can until April or May... That's our self-imposed deadline on using the injectables. So let's see what nature has in store!